My mother told me, last night, if she ever was to lose me; she’d be completely heartbroken. I don’t know how to feel. I’ve been planning my suicide since years and now I decided that I will, tmnext week. I’ve prepared everything. I gave my pet. I paid all of my debts. I finished school. I am ready;
But, she doesn’t want me to leave. I am conflicted in so many ways. I am kind of mad. I wanted to die and still want to. Why did she ruined it all? Now I feel bad just thinking about killing myself.
